12th
Inside Boxes
Yesterday I was asked how I am so relaxed about things? How are you so chill. Well here it is:
The main reason for me being chill and not letting little things bother me is because I’ve watched so many people drag out drama or grudges with others over the dumbest stuff. Everyone is always talking about how life is to short and we should run with the one we have as long as we can. So why spend so much time sweating about the small stuff. Especially the stuff that you know in 30 minutes, without acknowledgement, will vaporize into thing air. BOOM! Problem solved. If something is not going to make you mad for more than an hour or two … why worry about it?
I’m not saying I believe in bottling up your feelings and air tight packing them inside with space saving bags you bought for 3 easy payments of $19.99, but there is a difference between bottling up and disregarding or not caring.
Another statement I hear a lot is, “I wish I could just pick up and go.”
The obvious response is, “than why don’t you?” Our generation is just starting to settle a little to much these days. With all the technology and transportation you can move anywhere and easily move back at a later date if you choose. I guess I’ve never really thought of it as a gift to have the mentality to just move or go some place different. Perhaps I’ve always known that if I wanted to I could always move closer to my family in the future, but now is not the time. Now is the critical time that I think the majority of people who have regrets when they are older always say, “I wish I would of gone and tried something different for a while.” I suppose after hearing that enough times I was convinced I didn’t want to have that thought when I’m older.
Do you ever think about marriage or being lonely?
Perhaps on the third Wednesday of the month. Actually, yes I do think about it every once in a while, but now is not my time for that. To answer the lonely part, I think now days you have to try to be lonely. I could be completely wrong in saying that, but I generally don’t feel lonely. Maybe I get bored sometimes, but I snap out of it, and being bored is no reason to search for someone else. No one wants to be your entertainer. We should hang out with others because we want to, because we are curious, or to push each others thoughts.
[I don’t know why I wrote all this out … but maybe it’s because I keep thinking about it … or maybe it’s because I feel I should be doing something productive while sitting in this coffee shop surrounded by UPS guys and people to the left and right of me “working from home.”]
